Not up to my best
This week has been somewhat of a struggle for me. Not feeling like my normal self, feeling a little down and nervous. I am waiting for my Gasterologist to get back to me so that I can schedule to have CT scan done on my stomach. She was concerned about how much my stomach is sticking out and it isn't going down. It has been that way for a couple of months now.
I am going to be totally transparent right now but my dad passed away back in 1999 at the age of 58 and it has been a big loss to me every since but he passed away from cancer and they don't know what the origin of it came from and honestly I am scared because I am now 53 and of course it is in the back of my mind about me maybe getting cancer. My mom is pretty healthy she is 78 and doesn't have that many problems just the normal stuff of aging.
I am trying to stay positive about it and some days I am fine and not worried but with the test coming it of course it sparked me to be somewhat concerned about it.
I just wanted to vent and share my feelings to you guys and thanks for reading it.