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I had chemo, radiation and surgery for Esophageal cancer on February 11. Had a CatScan follow-up on May 12. Oncologist said everything was clear and that the liver "lesions" have shrunk. A biopsy was done before and they were found to be non cancerous. Although I know everything is good according to all the tests. I still have this looming feeling which prevents me from moving forward although I can't really move anywhere now due to the pandemic.

It is good to hear other people have this feeling. When I can feel safe to go out and do things it probably will help me a lot. Thanks for all your advice.


  • SunshinedaffSunshinedaff Posts: 1,285 ✭✭✭✭✭


    Good morning,

    Welcome to the community. Thank you so much for sharing part of your story. It is lovely to'meet' you.

    It is good news to hear you have had a positive report from the doctors.

    I hope physically you are recovering from all the treatment and surgery you have had recently.

    The mental and emotional recovery I have found takes a while longer. The question marks, fear and anxiety over whether the cancer really has all gone, or if it will return again is a huge mental mountain to get over. I am sure you will be monitored regularly for sometime, and always should you sense or feel something isn't right do not be afraid to contact the doctors to tell them. I was told anytime I noticed anything odd, to phone up, not to leave it.

    I remember when I was going through it all, I was very positive throughout, but I naturally concentrated most of my efforts on getting through the physical aspects of treatment and recovery. I think a lot of us are like that. When it was all over, I couldn't understand why a few months later I found myself in tears a lot. It didn't make sense to me. I had a successful treatment, the cancer was removed. Why was I crying? I should be happy right? I wanted to return to how I was before cancer, get back to normal. But normal had moved and hadn't left a forwarding address!! I felt myself slipping into the outskirts of depression. That was when I spoke to my GP who was lovely, understood exactly what was going on, she explained it to me. The mental and emotional fallout of cancer is HUGE. I have had to adjust my life and how I live a lot and have had to find a new 'normal' .

    Most importantly, be kind to yourself, take it slowly, one day at a time if necessary. You have been through a huge ordeal, the effects of which are not to be underestimated.

    There are many other lovely people here, everyone is very friendly, supportive, and will understand and empathise with how you are feeling, even if the cancer is different.

    @KarinSieger , Karin is a specialist cancer and wellbeing counsellor, she has a lot of wisdom and insight. You can read many of her posts in the 'Ask an Emotional Wellbeing Advisor' discussion.

    Please keep in touch with how you are doing, join in with any discussion too if you feel like it.

    Take care, chat soon,

    Lou 😊

  • KarinSiegerKarinSieger Posts: 98 Emotional Wellbeing Advisor

    Hello @Dancer1943

    Thanks for joining the community and sharing your own experience. Lou @Sunshinedaff has already given a comprehensive response and kindly introduced me. I have written a piece on "10 steps to help us cope with life after cancer treatment" which you might be interested in. You can read it HERE .

    If you would like more individual support, then just let me know by replying to this message. As I am currently nursing a broken wrist I keep my typing to a minimum, but offer a free 30 min online Zoom video call instead.

    With best wishes.

    Karin 🌱

    Karin Sieger
    Psychotherapist | Cancer Counsellor  | Reg. MBACP (Accred)

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