I don’t like us anymore.
I’m feeling sorry for myself. my husband has stage four small cell lung cancer. He’s just finished chemo and radiotherapy. His prognosis is 12 months. His personality has changed. I know longer like him. He saying nasty things most of the time and then he’s all soppy. He’s acquired a skill where he can ignore me for days. He does nothing to help, he just complains about everything. We’ve been married nearly thirty years and it has been a good marriage but I’ve had enough of his behaviour, the reason mainly is because I have severe heart failure. I am dying. Two years ago I was told I had about three to four years left to live so I’m dying to so why should I spend my time with a person who doesn’t like anything I say or do. I know it’s chemo rage , I know he can’t help it. I do love him I just don’t like him. We have no support network , we’re both unhappy with what we’ve been dealt but I don’t want to spend the time we have left unhappy, surely we could find something to do together. I feel we are just waiting for death in between arguments and long silences. Any advice?