'But you're OK now'
I've had colon cancer. Lots of test resulted in a diagnosis in Feb, followed by a Right hemicholectomy in March. Fortunately for me, the 37 lymph nodes and associated blood vessels and veins were all clear and I'm now free from Cancer. I have 5 years of surveillance ahead and always the possibility of it returning.
The last 6 months have taken its toll and although I'm now relatively well, I feel as if I'm floundering. People who showed concern are now saying things like -
'but you're fine. Get on with life'
'stop dwelling on it'
'you're looking so well, aren't you lucky'
'This must be such a relief for you '
Whilst I am very lucky, I feel a bit like a ticking time bomb and just waiting for the next scan, hoping everything is still OK.
Is it wrong to feel as if I'm in mourning?