Im new to the group but also I haven't accessed any of the on line support .
I was diagnosed with primary invasion breast cancer in the middle of March 2019 . I have been reading some posts of woman being diagnosed with cancer and the feeling of this is not happening to me and why me , this thinking did stop me accepting what was happening to me and the changes a head of me and then it hit me i have cancer . The most difficult at moment is going from working 40 hours a week very physically active and a great social life to changing my bedding and feeling like I've run a marathon and having to rest , dancing to baby shark with my 17 month old beautiful grand daughter and having to rest . This is so frustrating and at times i feel very emotional . I am so lucky I have such supportive husband kids family friends and they are such loving caring people but then at times I feel lonely . My husband did say to me the other day I need a hobbie I know this is good advice and coming from the right place but being honest I could of screamed at him and told him were to get off then i felt guilty because this is not usually me .
My treatment plan started so quick chemotherapy first for 21 weeks but may change which this really scares me because I think how mentally will I cope with this . I started 1st chemotherapy on 15th April and recently had my 2nd . I suffered with fatigue and feeling sick really affects my appetite . I have anti sickness tablets they didn't work as well this time and for the first time in my adult life I don't want to loose weight , any suggestions would be so welcoming .
I am going to be having a operation but because of type of tumour I have and what my consultant suspects i have been offered the genetic blood test which I am going ahead with this . This does scare me because then this opens another set of worries and also waiting for results and not having a clear plan , it's so frustrating because of the potential implications for my 2 adult children who I love so dearly . I'm trying not to create more worries in my head but so difficult .
I want to say thankyou to any one who reads this and would really appreciate any advice