I had to restart chemotherapy yesterday, just Gemcitabine, for several weeks. I had finished a course on August 1st. last year, which involved that drug, tablets which I didn't get on with and stopped, and Fulforinox which had been stopped early as too severe (six months"tidy-up" after having a Whipple's Procedure in October 2108, for head of pancreas tumour). I had been quite well since then, no loss of weight and eating okay. My oncologist was keeping an eye on me, as there was a shadow behind the operation site, which didn't change, but I have been getting more and more lower back and right side aches, under the ribs. I was beginning to take more painkillers for this. I had a PET scan about 3 weeks ago, which did show some tumour there, but it had not spread, thank goodness. I cannot have another operation as it's near some major blood vessels, so I'm back on chemo to try and stop it. I have been told I'm a possible candidate for something called Cyber-Knife, so I have to wait and see what the outcome is. Feeling fed up , what with all this and the virus causing me to come under the vulnerable notice. I feel as if I've been in lock down since 2018, and was just beginning to hope to get out and about more!! We were hoping to move house too, but thankfully hadn't started the process, so that won't happen now.
I hardly see anyone but the hospital staff and my husband (poor man!), as my scientist son is in America and can't fly over. My scientist daughter is very busy working on validating this virus as well as her other work! I'm glad to be still here though, but when I'm going through the darkest times, I wonder why!!
I wish I could get a hair trim too, so will resemble a shaggy sheepdog before all this ends,(I didn't lose my hair last time, but who knows), but I'm probably not the only one.
Take care and best wishes.